well, i got a clean bill of health from my blood test campaign for post-miscarriages, shall-we-or-shan’t-we attempt another pregnancy probing thing. my genes were pretty clean, except that on a few of my little chromosomes, instead of having a normal XY, i had dropped or added X’s. they said this was typical for someone of …
Month: June 2010
so the last few weeks were pretty rough between robb and me. i was punishing me. and him. and by way of him, me again. i kept wavering between wanting to hurt him and wanting to pull him in to cover me like a blanket. very confusing. and costly. he’s extremely tough and can take …
so, i know i’ve been bemoaning the fact that i’m almost 30 and all my little eggs have hatched and my fertility chances are going down every year, nay, every moment!! but….in the news we are hearing all the time about 40-50 year old women getting pregnant. at conception, we have kelly preson (47), holly …
most people i know seem to have forgotten my recent loss or are retiscent to bring it up. i understand why. it’s sad and unpleasant and awkward to know what to say. every day at work i’m party to many happy conversations among and about pregnant women and few recognize that i was recently one …
the theme this last week has been self-destruction. self-loathing. and i give you one guess as to who is winning the blame game right now. correct. me. although my laser-like focus of hate and blame aimed at myself sometimes bounces off and hits the people closest to me…usually robb. poor guy. this weekend alone he’s …
crying behind a surgical mask is messy business because then you have snot, but you can’t wipe it because you’re sterile and can’t touch your face, and then you’re lame because you’re crying at work…all around not ideal. and tonight robb once again told me that “we’re going to be ok.”so all i can do …